So the whole boy thing is completly done.  After weeks of confusion and long talks, fights, etc.   I dunno really know what happened...he said he was gonna try to hang out more and stuff cuz he did like me n such.  One night I was invited to go to the bar he works at and I sent him a text saying I was coming up with friends thurs...he said he would rather see me outside of work...i told him i was going up with friends and implied i wasnt really there to see him.  Well apparently that made him VERY mad cuz he told me not to talk to him and to fuckin lose his number.  After all the bullshit I was just like ...okay.  Only bad part now its weird to go out there and have to see him, plus we kinda talk to the same ppl.  Weird oh well.

On a more exciting note there is this other boy...he is super cute.  I knew him in HS but we never really hung out then.  He is kinda shy and I guess I am too in a way.  But he is so nice and polite.  Unlike the first boy.  Problem is I dont think its likely that we will ever date, cuz were both kinda shy...he is more shy in general...im more shy about intiating things.  Plus he is friends with this guy i used to date in HS...and recently i stayed the night at this boys place and i think there is confusion about whether we are dating or like eachother...BUT WE DONT...i just had one too many vodka lemonades and couldnt drive home....oh well...meanwhile im trying to become better friends with him...and hide the fact that i have a super huge crush on him!!!! 

ttfn

On Saturday I saw the boy.  He get this actually texted me first!  He wanted to know what i was up to that night!  Lol so after many texts and stuff we decided to hang out!...I gave a little shit for being an ass and kinda acknowledge it, though didnt offically apoligize.  He bought me some alcohol for my house lol, which was nice but also kinda weird i guess...   We went back to my place as usual and watched movies.  We didnt make out at all during the movie!  I was really happy about that and proud that i can resist temptation!  He did do cute things like kiss me on the check rub my back n stuff tho....then we went to sleep...we made out a little in bed...which was nice and i could tell he was trying to cuddle with me every now and again just to make me happy...lol.  The next morning was okay.  I got up after the fourth time he woke me up by moving or snuggling me.  It so weird he will put his arm around me for like 10 min and change his mind...lol i guess i move a lot in my sleep too...my friend says we are like the same person lol but also very different.  We do have a lot of those weird little things in common...like...

We both have clammy hands lol i know its gross

we both get really cranky when we dont eat

We both move a lot in our sleep

we both like attention, and when we sit down and are alone we smother ourselves in it ha

we are both extremly irish and have lots of freckles 

Thats all i can think of for now... there was more but i forgot em ...ill keep adding to it...lol not that any of this really means anything its just kinda funny...

Lata!

So about a week ago on Saturday actually...It was late my friend and I just left a bar.  It was snowing like crazy out.  And in my tipsy state I texted the boy.  Ha well it didnt go so well...im just gonna write the convo below.

Me:  I totally just fell in the snow! lol

Boy: And I totally just woke up from a dumb text.

Me(trying to make light of the situation): Your sleeping?... lame!

Boy: I was sleeping, now im trying to go back to sleep.

Me: Wow....Okay

Boy: I have work tomorrow.

Me: Sorry to disturb you

Well i have had about a week to reflect on this.  Of course my friends kinda think he is an ass...expecially the one who was over when it happened.  I guess I can understand getting mad, but i would of just rolled over and went back to sleep.  Then I started to think...this is a bad sign, he is verbally abusive.

So I didnt text him, till last night.  I dont know why I just can't let it go...I have done it millions of times before, the whatever he is being an ass and I moved on to another guy or got busy doing something else.  Anyway here are the texts from last night...

Me: Is it safe to text you? lol...

Boy: Yes.

Me: Haha..okay just checking.  You working tomorrow in the day time?  Thought maybe we chould have some friendly fun....i dont have work..havent't for days lol

(i know friendly fun sounds totally weird lol but we are kinda weird, and i wanted the phrase friends to be in there)

Boy: I have to work during the day tomorrow.

Me: Alright...Maybe another time then.  I know something freaked you out but i would like to stay friends with you cuz your hilarious.

five min later....

Me: Sorry I didnt know how else to word that.  I guess if your not cool with that just let me know...

(I just wanted to be honest...and i think i gave him an easy out here...)

Boy: I'm working. Everything is fine I've had a bad week.

Me: That sucks, sorry.  Hope you have a better week.

Hm, so I dunno i guess everything is fine? lol....If he was having a bad week maybe that is why he got so cranky...i dont want to make excuses for him but i guess it happens...at any rate i really do want to be friends.  But i doubt ill hear from him first.  haha.  Oh well just gonna give it some more time and maybe send him an invite next time my friends and i go drinking or something...though he will probbly be working...who knows...